Dear Hanna,

Tiredness is a subjective experience of lethargy, weakness or lack of energy. The underlying neurophysiological mechanisms that cause tiredness are unknown, despite intensive research in the field. Tiredness is usually divided into muscular tiredness, which is the feeling that one's muscles and motor apparatus are tired, emotional tiredness, which is a condition that is described as an emotional tiredness with an inability to feel motivation or strong emotions and cognitive tiredness is characterized by a subjective or objective impairment of cognitive functions, such as memory and concentration. Tiredness should not be confused with the related concept of sleepiness.

I puked last night. I hate puking, especially the moment just before the content of your stomach is pushed through your throat and out of your body. All my strength is gone, I can't stand, can't really move at all, my head is filled with dizziness, it sticks in my whole body and all I can hear is a big “NO” in my head. There are few other moments I feel so pitiful. I don't really know why I vomited, if it was something I ate or not. One of the other guest artists had been sick earlier in the evening, but she claimed it was because she was so nervous. It's a strange coincident though, maybe there was something in the air... Whatever the reason might have been, the result is a day clouded by tiredness. I could eat and work a bit, but I had to take naps during the day, and that's something I hardly ever do. My state have been a combination of the three types of tiredness; muscular, emotional and cognitive. I'm happy knowing that I'll probably will have another day tomorrow. Imagine being a mayfly and only live for one day. Imagine starting that day with puking and then being tired for the rest of your short life. But maybe they have another sense of time, and one day is as long as a lifetime for us? In a way that would be even worse. Imagine being tired for the rest of your life. No, lets not even go there. Lets go to bed instead and hopefully wake up tomorrow filled with new energy, inspiration and eagerness.

I hope you're healthy and full of strength.

Love,
Johanna